Poolside mythology

I just had a brainwave, and suddenly all the shiny dimes of impressions that have long since settled into the silt of memory reemerge as glinting constellations that are quite impossible to ignore, and which bring me back to this dusty shore of my universe. Funny how this continuum of inspiration operates for me -a sort of guerrilla-style expansionist force that relies on astrology to tell the time. This reminds me of the need for some kind of negotiation between the faculties of my brain that receive and interpret worldly data. The former needs to stop over-curating, while the latter has to stop blowing itself up into a cavern full of bubblegum-like atrophy. 


The subject matter that so agitates me at the present moment can be quite plainly inferred from the title -pools. Since this gleaming body of water made its first splash at my consciousness a radiograph of ideas has precipitated - a film reel dotted with the "luminous details" Ezra Pound spoke about, images that present "intellectual and emotional complex(es) in an instant of time", "radiant node(s) or cluster(s) ... from which, and through which, and into which, ideas are constantly rushing". Though I write "mythology", the details with which I am about to fill out this incandescent outline are more significant in the personal, rather than in the wider cultural context of pools and baths sort of way. They consist of bits and pieces of trinkets that I've collected along the way -not without some magic, of course, from stowing them under my pillow for a night or two. Kate Durbin very aptly summed up this magic in this interview as a "trendwarping" phenomena, where teenagers on Tumblr "hijack(ing) symbols from pop culture and disrupt(ing) their meaning". Perhaps my uncanny desire to constantly curate my perceptions is a reaction to the frustrations generated by this age of all too accessible excess -the eye glazes over much that is indifferently distinct, and the self has to cultivate its own choices. Infinity has eclipsed itself, and suddenly life in the vacuum has become both a necessity and a sin. Anyway what I really mean to say is that though the following list was born with the stretchmarks of my own tendencies I hope that sharing it can nonetheless bring something to you, dear reader, as it had to me.


Those of you who have been sticking around here will probably know by now that kitsch sits at the frontline of my preoccupations. They are in other words the things that evoke what I like to call supernatural nostalgia. It's the overwhelming sense of familiarity that makes you blink, the caress of the pulsating intuition that we carry within ourselves -the same sort of stuff that goes on in a synesthete, who senses the abstract truth via a shadow set of connections. It's a private celebration of the universal, the collective. It's a fucking Lana Del Rey song. And here is a verse of lyric that led me to write, some time ago, in a burst of feeling: "I feel like I'm living a reflection of a life. I was to be a savage, and lose myself in tragedy."

Yo we used to go break in


To the hotel, glimmerin' we’d swim


Runnin' from the cops in our black bikini tops


Screaming, "Get us while we're hot. Get us while we're hot."


(Come on take a shot)

This is What Makes Us Girls, Lana Del Rey

Say what you may about this being just another lackluster vignette from a post-authentic singer, but you can't dispute the fact that this pool scene is a gem in the sequence. Lithe wild girl gymnastics under forbidden waters, the clamorous ballet of sexual awakening. As the protagonist in Byatt's A Lamia in the Cévennes would describe in the words of Matisse, "swimming was volupté ... Luxe, calme et volupté". Swimming is sensuous, intimate as a waltz. The whole song is a lovely encapsulation of the American narrative of youth -shimmering with transient beauty, and dappled with foolish recklessness. 

A.S. Byatt rendered the lust of the pool with a different palette. In his turn Bernard Lycett-Kean was seduced by what he called a "combat" -the aesthetic challenge of reproducing the "dangerous" richesse of the swimming-pool. 

The two young men were surprised that Bernard wanted it blue. Blue was a little moche, they thought. People now were making pools steel-grey or emerald green, or even dark wine-red. But Bernard's mind was full of blue dots now visible across the southern mountains when you travelled from Paris to Montpellier by air. It was a recalcitrant blue, a blue that asked to be painted by David Hockney and only by David Hockney. He felt that something else could and must be done with that blue. It was a blue he needed to know and fight.

And with that Bernard promptly begins to attack the violent impressions emitting from the pit in his backyard. His work as a painter is both a demystifying and mysterious process. As he attempts to unpack the handicraft of the pool architect  -a compact creation of copulations between depth and geometry, texture and color- he is also compelled to navigate the labyrinth of desires and urges that has surfaced from the recesses of his consciousness. Though he can find no objective reason to justify his obsession he, well, can't stop being obsessed. And Byatt concludes this poolside struggle with a touch of irreverent wisdom. His brain hurt, and his eyes stared, and he felt whipped by winds and dried by suns. He was happy, in one of the ways human beings have found in which to be happy.

Bernard Lycett-Kean was a middle-aged businessman fed up with "Thatcher's Britain", who moved to the Cévennes with a stock of red wine and began to paint for a living. Unsurprisingly the pool was also the object of reverie for another rich man in history, this time on a much more monumental scale. Adolph Sutro was the 24th mayor of San Francisco, a shrewd entrepreneur who was an engineer by training. In 1896 what was then known as the world's largest indoor swimming pool establishment swung its doors open to the Californian public, with seven different swimming experiences in pools of varying temperatures and water types in store for the visitor. The Sutro Baths was the Coney Island of the West -complete with a museum, a concert hall, an ice-skating rink, and an eccentric man behind the curtains. It's kitsh 101.

"I used to go there on a special night of the week, a Wednesday, and we waltzed. And I met a fellow every time I went there once a week ... We would waltz. He was a ... I can remember he was tall, very tall, and skated beautifully... Every couple was just waltzing. It was lovely."

A former Sutro Baths visitor reflecting on her memories there

I'm actually amazed at how far I have managed to stretch the associations of the pool. How complacent my writing sounds (I hope it does), in opposition to the helter-skelter tango that is skidding across the tiles of my brain in real-time. Since I was a child I've always been baffled with letters. I'm very inconsistent in my learning of languages -slow and stupid and unnatural when it comes to grammar, syntax and clear-headed expression, but always jumping over the hedge for liaisons with imagistic construction. Maybe it's because I'm too self-conscious when writing. They say that our mind reads a word in its entirety, which explains why it can still interpret one with all but the head and tail letters jumbled. Maybe it's an indulgence in the dance of unreal yellow, as Robin in Byatt's short story Art Work sees it, in the 'x's and 'y's. In any case I've still much to learn when it comes to this indispensable means of communication. I'm also amazed at how I've managed to rein in the temptation to insert pictures, relying solely on the written word -though I will have to start putting some in now, as I move on to film.


Nowadays it's quite a different crowd stitching up the fable of the pool. It's a roaming pack of kids taking over the drained out hollows scattered across California. These nomads on skateboards saw an opportunity in California's foreclosure crisis, reclaiming these relics from a more golden age of the past as novel skating terrain. It's a new turf sprung up from faded sunshine and peeling gold, an unassuming rejuvenation. (Remember Piscine Molitor from Life of Pi? Its walls became the canvas of graffiti artists after the complex was closed down back in 1989.) Watch the 5 minute short film here, under Cannonball; actually watch all the short films there, because one simply can't have enough of California's dreamscape, and it's fantastic how two people have created a portal specially for the transmission of its magic.


Robert Altman's 1977 film 3 Women opens with a pool rippling with the languid movement of pastel-purple plastered bodies of indifferent twenty-somethings and trance-like elderly. The setting is also Californian -this time in a small desert town where life seems to be waded through in slow motion. In between long, dramatic takes of the sinuous surface of a swimming pool Altman recreates an atmosphere and characters that linger after a dream of his. The two main protagonists Pinky (portrayed by Sissy Spacek) and Millie (portrayed by Shelley Duvall) work at a health spa for the elderly, and live in a beautifully manicured and resort-like place called Purple Sage Apartments, at the heart of which lies a pool. At the floor of that pool stares out creatures of obscure origins -the work of their neighbor muralist Willie (portrayed by Janice Rule; the murals are the real-life work of artist Bodhi Wind). At the faux climax of the film, Pinky jumps into the pool from a height and lies face-down in the water, her nightgown a bloated dumbbell. The tone is suspension -the minimalist plot rides on a magic realist mis-en-scene and improvised dialogue, but the rest falls short of imminent -phantom developments, the limbo of an aquarium.

Until next time.

Prelude

I've begun writing again; the paperweight has shifted, sending fritters of dead pulp flying -this time in new and revised directions. I'm speaking in terms of new mediums and forms -the harnessing, sorting and packaging of a consciousness in the writing of fiction as opposed to the self-surgery involved in personal responses and criticism, and the breaking down of loaded prose into vignettes, poetry and lyric, a condensation and distillation alongside the summation of thought. I'm also speaking in terms of new subject matter -more literature, art history, films, and maybe even music, if my senses permit. Picking myself up from where I had last left it lying and seeking to regain both memory and muscle, I have also come to terms with the need to grant my self sufficient time and space for the ripening of feelings and revelations. Hopefully this fresh bout of labour will be blessed with a less tortured access to the intuition and more wholesome creative experiences.

To grease the wheels of the new start here is a piece of prose I wrote last week. I feel like its reproduction has run its course -it has slit through a gaze too many, both during its construction and in its supposed final form, I've typed and re-typed it, written and re-written it, so much so that the piece seemed to have been flayed inside out, no more substantial than a scattering of pencil shavings. Nevertheless I'm sending it out to make one more clumsy pirouette in cyberspace; because in many ways it was a development for me, to have what started out as a personal reflection turned into a work of fiction, and to realize that I was comfortable and happy with this treatment of material.

 As I wrote it for school, the title was prescribed: "The next time a stranger talks to me". Now before the curtain of shame cascades:

The next time a stranger talks to me…

Now apparently I’m supposed to consider this stranger project with the utmost gravity, because of the great stakes at hand –by stakes they really mean 7 billion human beings (“sentient creatures”), each with “a heart and mind teeming with consciousness”, bearing the vague promise of some yet-to-be-unearthed key to fortuitous affinity. Yes, this is what the all too chirpy facilitator at today’s book club session meant to impart to us –that we could do ourselves good by injecting serendipity into our solitary existences, and that the art behind this raid lies in “actively engaging the stranger”. By the last minute of the hour everyone appeared to be dreadfully alarmed at the thought of having “everything passing us by”, as put by Mrs. Pinkerfield, whose shrilly lamentations stirred up considerable unease among the other ladies. (She has since set up camp in a café downtown, bent on passing the week in the caffeine-stained company of unknowns.) Everybody seemed unfazed by the fact that their actions deflated the very essence of serendipity –for suddenly it became a matter of responsibility, of heroism even, to crack down the six degrees of separation (was it seven?) and reconstruct it for ourselves. So out to the streets we have to go, condemned to a futile hunt by the sidewalks until the elusive strikes.

I was very easily left behind in the tumult of light-headed excitement and brow-furrowing determination that exited the room. By the time I managed to get out into open air the bunch of them had long since dissolved, swept up by the millions of diverging currents that ripple through the Lower East Side of Manhattan, one not to meet another for yet another fourteen roundabouts the clock’s face. It’s easy to get left behind in New York City; sometimes I feel like it’s a huge touch-and-go game, with everyone etched in a perpetual crouch, ready to spring for the home-run. It began to rain with a vengeance –like how it can only do in New York– and at once a lurid army of glossy umbrellas began to bloom, swarming over the sidewalks, earnest and unrelenting. Whatever Maya Angelou said about a friend waiting behind a stranger’s face probably does not apply on a rainy day in this city. Besides, the vividity is nauseating –I cannot bear to find out the myriad of contours and yarn and pits and scars lurking behind each gait, each intonation of speech, each collage of a face (“each person is a living mythology”). The looking glass will make it absolutely impossible for me to be anywhere near people. I’d much rather the city remain a large Impressionist painting, stroke after stroke, slab after slab, a wet and comforting mess.

A large Impressionist painting. That’s almost exactly what Bill would have said, had he been in the rain with me. It was in his nature to turn an aesthetic eye to just about everything. That vase sits like a Matisse nude. Do you hear that song from the street? The Mariachis are heroes who sing of home and tragedy. But his favorite quip only came as he worked on his own paintings. See that gradient at the water’s edge? I worked hard to achieve that mélange parfait between the elements. Light, color, composition. It was a battle against chance –but alas the vision prevails. I would have said –But there are infinite opportunities of blue that lie in each new blend, in each drop and possibly the constituents of that drop. Even the sun’s rays will never find the perfect entry into the heart of a diamond. And you would give your familiar laugh and remind me that I’ve forgotten the intuition, the intuition of the artist and human being. For that dash of cobalt that did it? It was an intersection of intuition and technique, half-hazard, half-practice. Us meeting was like that decisive stroke –a new beginning with an ancient soul. Beautiful mistakes, artful accidents. Serendipity with an ancient soul. I had known and believed it all along. Ever since Bill’s death I start conversations by asking the stranger if he or she enjoyed Manet, or Cézanne, or any fine art at all? Lightning doesn’t strike the same place twice, but our heart’s memory keeps the search alive.

Thinking about this stranger project has occupied more time than I thought it would. Perhaps talking to one or two wouldn’t be so bad. A good conversation and a cup of tea might just pull me through this afternoon.

City of Angels

I finally got around to completing the novel Lolita some time last month, coursing through the pages in the afternoons with a flurried, barely contained sense of excitement, intervals of held breaths; indulging in extravagant pauses to let myself immortalize the porcelain-delicate portraiture of nymphage, the demonic, rich and sweet description of Humbert's landscape of erotica, and sad American scenery; eventually emerging from the experience utterly moved and crushed. There were shards of kaleidoscopes between the layers of words and meaning, smithereens of Humbert's visions, the sharp tang of his desire. But throughout I couldn't help but be disappointed at how Lo was simply out of my reach. Her reflection seemed only perceptible through the gleam and curvature of the bell-jar of Humbert's narrative -and the careless public eye seems only to subsist on the occasional lucid glimpses of a thigh, an arm or lower-lip. This of course did not dent the fable one bit -in fact the bubble of hyper-reality through which we came to be acquainted with Lolita, part Humbertian mythology, part plain Dolores- was what made it, as Vanity Fair had put it, "the only convincing love story of our century"; nevertheless it got into the way of my internalizing of characters, how I'd always try to hunt for an opening, like a tree hollow, and climb into them.

But a review of Lolita is not the focus of this post today; much had been said about it, and much more will be said in the future, and for now I'm satisfied with the small clipping of dialogue I had just inserted into the literary discourse in the blogosphere. There is something I wish to share about my analysis of Lo though, the singular flecks of color that radiate hotly beneath the foam of Humbertian tale-spinning, the details that give you an idea of who plain Dolores, Dolores in slacks, is, the life she may have led if she had never stumbled into the periphery of her European stepfather. What I feared most was not that she might ruin me, but that she might accumulate sufficient cash to run away. I believe the poor fierce-eyed child had figured out that with a mere fifty dollars in her purse she might somehow reach Broadway or Hollywood -of the foul kitchen of a diner (Help Wanted) in a dismal ex-prairie state, with the wind blowing, and the stars blinking, and the cars, and the bars, and the barmen, and everything soiled, torn, dead. And all the while it was Lo with the lurid movie magazines, the star-studded tennis racket, the grit of her lipstick, her quiet navigation towards the valley of stars. It was this thread of personage that delighted me, the clench of teeth as I scoured underneath the lines for signs of its endurance, and the possibilities. 

The process of uncovering a mythology is almost a spiritual experience -it falls short of the metaphysical only because of its intrinsic aesthetic nature. Aesthetic, because it combines theory, which is inherently romantic, with harmony of the senses, and this synchronicity helps to create what Leo Tolstoy calls the complete illusion of beauty. It is the urban legend that lures me at the moment; if there is to be a single tableau, sculpture, installation that is most authentic to humanity I would attribute it to be the urban landscape -for it is arguably the only true instance of collaborative, and progressive creation of our kind, for its physical shell mimics the mortal frame, and what informs its clockwork is both the subconsciousness of the individual and the consciousness of society- and underlying all this is our most frank discourse with geography yet, making the city a living archive of this precarious dialogue. Though I did not know it at that point, the patchwork of Dolores' identity gave me a vantage point for exploring Los Angeles, and the supernova of memories and dreams that constitute its Milky Way, stellar explosions that have continually defined and re-invented its myths.

The preliminary sketch provided by Lolita saw a build up in conceptualization when I read Pink Smog: Becoming Weetzie Bat, by Francesca Lia Block. From the eyes of 13-year old Weetzie, we see plastic, visual snippets of 1980s Los Angeles -dives into the Sunset Strip, a bird's eye view from the Hollywood sign, a visit to Marilyn Monroe's resting place. But it was the less symbolic stopovers to which I had latched onto with a supernatural nostalgia. I had this city and I decided that I had better fall in love with her again because she wasn't going anywhere and neither was I. The black pavement, dark to hide the dirt, sparkled with diamond chips in the burning sun. Poisonous but gorgeous flowers bloomed in white, coral, magenta, and red. The sunsets in L.A. were pink with smog. At night the lethal freeways became the Milky Way. I adored how the descriptions of Los Angeles were suffused with a kind of seductive poison on the inside, and whitewashed with a Jetsons' style aesthetic on the outside. He nodded and moved closer. He smelled like sand and tar and wind, gasoline and sawdust and oranges. He smelled like Los Angeles. 

Decadence

As much as it had been ignored at the box office during the time of its release, I think one of the most powerful soliloquies amongst all the period movies I have been climbing into in the past few weeks was delivered in Foxes (1980). Powerful, because I think no script had ever been able to provide such succinct, lucid and spot-on commentary on the big and usually nebulous and elusive ideas that lurk behind time periods, in this case the late 1970s. In a remote corner of Los Angeles, 15-year old Jeanie (portrayed by Jodie Foster) tells Brad (portrayed by Scott Baio) about how the people of her generation had lost touch with the notion of pain by dismissing it as an illusion. "Like it isn't even real" -these words were a mirror to the society I saw through the lens of the film, where family units disintegrated due to failed parenthood, parents who couldn't escape their internal labyrinths of pain, where youth had only the pedestal of vice to kneel at, and everyone's existence ebbed away in the numbing soundscape of rock and roll. The danger of anesthesia was encapsulated in the climax of the movie, where Annie (played by Cherie Currie) crashed headlong into her own death after letting drugs take over the helm of her life for too long a time. Her death shook her friends' world up a little, and was perhaps the driving force behind their acting upon the pain radiating underneath the wounds inflicted on their young lives -but even at the end of the film I still sensed the dust of illusion, dust which might have obliterated those wounds from sight and from sensation if no one had interrupted their descent. 

For a long time now I have found myself revisiting vintage America -exploring the various ideals and philosophies that underlay certain time periods, as well as the glorious and decaying aesthetic empires that these past eras have left behind for the folks of the 21st century. The more prominent of these musings, which will be featured further down in this post, included The Great American Road Trip, or it seemed so, which took Route 66 by storm; old Las Vegas, with its delightful crass and neon haven; obsolete boomtowns, subjects of urban decay theory, also of a certain Bob Dylan song. Part of the reason for my fascination with the above memorabilia stems from how they form a part of that delicate history that existed just before the onset of the digital and globalized age. Delicate for two reasons: if everything everybody is saying about how digital archives will soon see the nature of history altered and fade nostalgia to an irrelevant blur is true, that period of history will be the last time humanity can participate in a single consciousness as a collective whole to create ideals, aesthetics, whatever. At the same time this period of history is special because it stands just behind the present day and age, and hence possesses a form of invincibility, because our inability to consume it whole has in turn spawned a diverse array of culture cults (which I hope everybody finds something worth celebrating in itself!). If you've stuck with me for this long, I hope you'd enjoy cruising through the New World as much as I did, and that my 21st century voice would find a balance between romanticization, satire, and pure enjoyment of great ages past.

1. The Great American Road Trip

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In their historical context, the growth of what we have come to identify as the staple accessories of the American road trip -road-side establishments of motels, gas stations, 24-hour diners and bars- was in fact a not-so-extraordinary, complementary developmental feature of the advent of the automobile and the highway. As ownership of automobiles became more widespread and the density of transportation networks increased, these establishments eventually came to colonize the road side in order to take advantage of the economic opportunities the popularization of road trips had brought about. But it seems as though this supposed secondary landscape to the road trip had been rendered into the big picture -and most of the time they stand in the foreground of Americana portraits. After all it is them which form the bulk of what we term "Americana kitsch". The immense flow of traffic that was the source of life of the American road trip -for can we imagine how many individual stories and exchanges were transpired along the way?- is not so often the memento that we hold close to our hearts than the abandoned road-side diner or discolored motel sign. The enduring backdrop -the diner menu which stayed original throughout the years, the unfaltering neon lights and the barmen and receptionists whom have seen it all- against which some of the most dazzling of automobile history unfolded and continues to unfold seems to me to have a firmer presence in both the individual and public imagination. 

2. Vegas

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Images the courtesy of www.neonmuseum.org

If aesthetic judgement carried equal weight as to that of its moral counterpart, I would think it may be possible to exempt Las Vegas from condemnation for its celebration of vice based on the grounds of aesthetic redemption. Or perhaps its graphic neon playground that has become the face of vice itself is the ultimate crime the city has committed. The title of today's post was inspired by a gallery that featured photography of what the Neon Museum of Las Vegas terms its Neon Boneyard -basically a wasteland for the now dysfunctional neon signs that once illuminated the vulgar glory of the city. The immortality of mirages and a symbolic neon grave -you can always count on the city of vice for a fancy visual style.

3. North Country Blues

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North Country Blues, Bob Dylan

Come gather 'round friends
And I'll tell you a tale
Of when the red iron pits ran empty
But the cardboard filled windows
And old men on the benches
Tell you now that the whole town is empty.

In the north end of town
My own children are grown
But I was raised on the other
In the wee hours of youth
May mother took sick
And I was brought up by my brother.

The iron ore it poured
As the years passed the door
The drag lines an' the shovels they was a-hummin'
'Til one day my brother
Failed to come home
The same as my father before him.

Well a long winter's wait
From the window I watched
My friends they couldn't have been kinder
And my schooling was cut
As I quit in the spring
To marry John Thomas, a miner.

Oh the years passed again
And the givin' was good
With the lunch bucket filled every season
What with three babies born
The work was cut down
To a half a day's shift with no reason.
Then the shaft was soon shut
And more work was cut
And the fire in the air, it felt frozen

Singling out Chloride, a ghost town found in Arizona, presents as skewed a perception as choosing Shanghai or Beijing to represent the quintessential Chinese city. The repercussions of the gold and silver rushes that ushered waves of frenzy into the American continent run far deeper and more insidiously than what we are led to perceive and believe -and folk singer Bob Dylan reminds us of the very real suffering experienced by victims of short-sighted developmental schemes. Though urban decay and illusion exist side-by-side on a fine line, I still think it's fair to let the fable of gold rushes live on, and to not underestimate the value art, such as the 'Chloride Murals' (depicted above, the work of hippie artist Roy Purcell) can bring to boomtowns -towns which have only have a physical shell, and a localized existence that is more transient than life is itself. 

Violence in creativity

I'd have to apologize for my temporary death online. I've whizzed back and forth the Asian continent in the last 6 days for one of the most intense competition experiences I've ever had, only to bumble into a new school term and looming examinations and confront the icy realism of having to deal with matters of practical consequences alongside matters-in-the-cloud, and a generally very lousy aesthetic environment with worldly negativity floating around like it's nobody's business. And of course I turn to the alternate continuum with alternate people and an alternate energy balance that is the Internet, and for now I've decided that the best way to combat the dreary, almost vulgar lull of it all is to explore the concept of violence in creativity, through a medium that is very close to my heart: fashion. And of course this form of ammunition is not sustainable, because that is the nature of violence, and society is constructed around gravitational spheres such that even the strongest missiles will bend under sheer pressure when met with them. 


I guess I would start with the anti-artist of today's theme. 

And of course there isn't a need to put a face to the name, because, he is after all the wizard, fiction and omnipresence of the fashion industry. What I'd like to bring into focus today is that it is not very difficult to find out what lurks beneath the man himself, the man as an artist, the man's creative identity -because like all brands he unwittingly conforms to certain standards, and as a result his creations lack the luster of violence which characterizes the core and spirit of creation. Where Pablo P. was able to actualize his inner visions with a precision of a shotgun and a provocation that hinged upon the intensity of sexual energy, Karl's rifle, though loaded, remains silent. 

To illustrate my point I have chosen to include a range of sketches that Karl did up in a collaboration with Hogan. Not my favorite of his sketches, but I wanted to see a cohesive collection of sketches -no matter that the strand of cohesion was not strung through his own artistic outlook but was instead secondary to it, the consciousness and ugly awareness that the designs were slated for eventual marketing and sales with another brand with its own set of rules on top of everything. 

Images the courtesy of telegraph.co.uk

The above serves as visual evidence of how Karl's creative process is like an almost jarring composition of frozen music. The dominant melody is one which rings with an almost eerie note of finality -yet staccatos of thought and consideration, the more abstract and less certain bits of an artist's creative process, puncture the piece at odd intervals, the messy script amongst the coordinated color scheme and shades of shadow and background meant to complete. The music which trickles out of the sketches appears almost engineered, as if the designer himself had stopped short right before bursting into a passion of violent improvisation, depriving the piece of its defining characteristics and hence its name. In the same vein, but in a significantly more eloquent and well-written piece by (favorite) fashion journalist Robin Givhan:

For a historian who takes the long view of fashion, Patricia Mears, deputy director of the Museum at the Fashion Institute of Technology, has little interest in Lagerfeld’s work—even though the Couture Council, which financially supports the museum, honored him in 2010. “It’s not really fashion forward. It’s very derivative. It’s a mishmash of trends ... He draws what he thinks is interesting. There’so no continuum. It can be kind of scattershot,” she says.

The lack of the spirit of a continuum perhaps best sums up why there is a stark void of violence in Karl's work, and the man himself, or at least the public projection and perception of him. Then again, there may not even be a line between those two. Head to the above article to read Givhan's viewpoint, and decide for yourself.


On to the artists whose creations I feel embody the brave, violent soul of creation. 

Meadham Kirchhoff 

Images the courtesy of style.com

This collection was presented with the violent flourish that usually accompanies works of the theatrical tradition. Works of theatre are one of the few that champion the delicate balance between the immediacy of artistic creation and experience -the splinter or creative fraction of a second during which the artist gains the impetus for creation and formulates his artistic vision, as well as the instantaneous and often subconscious response ignited within an audience when introduced to a piece of art- and the maintenance of a continuum of creation, the anchoring of a piece of art, the quality that gave birth to timelessness and variety in interpretation. The collection did just that -as the warrior princesses storm down the runway, the various visual motifs and individuality of the characters seem to shift continuously, bristling with a life fueled by both the artist's and the audience's imagination. 

Vivienne Westwood

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While the continuum -the source of violence, originality and truth- of Kirchhoff's collection was the evolution of the unscripted play enacted on the stage of their inner theatres, the quality of it all being that of an unpolished diamond, Westwood managed to retain this excruciating violence in the impeccable, Japanese culture and Baroque era inspired faces of her jewels, and if we were to connect her collection to the aesthetic vibes of a certain physical space it would be that of a performance museum.

Female protagonists

I figure I should set the pen in motion again, this time not only just to avert a fungi attack on my mental faculties, but also an internal pandemic of unhealthy perfectionism. In other words, I have to loosen the braid of the rope which governs the creation of each blog post (coming up with this statement alone had cost me a span of five minutes, during which I held an internal debate, oscillating between decisions to use a pot of stew or a rope as a metaphor for what I wish to express. I decided on the latter) in order for myself to remain accountable to this blog, and the beings on Earth and galaxies beyond which may be interested in it. And in simpler, more unrefined terms yet, I have to stop being a chicken when it comes to creation, both for myself and for other people -and I'm only working in prose now, no visuals. So it's supposed to be a breeze, so I'm supposed to be able to make peace with the plain text I'm offering to you. Which today would begin with...

The Life and Times of Female Protagonists in Film and Literature

Or, the lace-shrouded, bonbon-wrapped interactions they have had with the author-in-question, including conversations held over cold English tea and Madeleines, in between recitations of French poetry and Valentine's Day cards, garlanding of flowers and making sculptures of scented wax; how she identifies and empathizes with them, marvels at the antics of teenage girlhood in different eras and places all around the globe, and muses about her own reactions had she been clothed in corsets and late Victorian-era dress and sent to a certain mystical geographical landmark or had she a wealthy benefactress to fund her education and enrich her travel experiences, like some of the characters have. 

1. Isabel Archer, The Portrait of a Lady by Henry James

She will have no pictorial representation, because not a single one (covers of various editions of the novel, portrayals in movies, interpretations done up by artists scattered around the Internet) to be found fulfills my vision of her; and if I can venture further to make the selfish assertion, does sufficient justice to her portraiture. It is a selfish declaration, one that is tipped with the poison of literary hypocrisy as deadly as belladonna, because I'm giving myself a deliberate break from my personal policy, and probably also the policy held by most if not all the people who have literary indulgences, which holds that there is no set interpretation of any piece of art, because the character-in-question stares out from the novel at me with a conviction and definite quality that can only be conveyed through ones reflection in the surface of a lake, or a piece of self-portraiture, or one done by someone who loves you, who seeks to comprehend you. I have overstepped my authority as a reader, because not only have I kidnapped the character-in-question on the pretext of a laughably commonplace occurrence of having established an immediate connection with her upon our acquaintance, I am also attempting to dictate other readers' response towards her -a crime as a literary student, a double penalty as one who respects, at the utmost, the liberty of an artist. 

In any case, Henry James, in his characteristic florid writing style which spares no detail and deals with things from under wraps, rolled out each shade and gradient of color of Isabel's character with majesty. (He writes of the highly 'original' beauty who, at the core of her remarkable worldview, values her independence over everything else, "She carried within herself a great fund of life, and her deepest enjoyment was to feel the continuity between the movements of her own soul and the agitations of the world.") But this post isn't a review of James' writing style, and I guess I should try and provide a decoding of why the bells of resonation were struck so audibly when I met Isabel. Perhaps to tell you that both her overt actions and internal landscape, others outward perception and inward sentiment towards her completely correspond with that of my own is my best explanation. But because one doesn't usually claim a "beautiful, intelligent and independent" (as quoted from the blurb) female protagonist to be ones alter ego (and because I know for a fact that I fall short of Isabel of her many traits, most notably her sharpness when interacting with others), I only have the capacity to assert that her "lava of existence" (refer to my first post) is not dissimilar to my own. 

For that reason, she remains faceless in this blog post, only unveiling herself to me and her creator, Henry James.

The following characters do have faces though:

2. Victoria Winters (played by Bella Heathcote♥) and Carolyn Stoddard (played by Chloe Moretz♥), Dark Shadows by Tim Burton

Film stills

My attraction to Victoria Winters began the very instant she was introduced in the film; the alacrity and quiet smile with which she pronounced her newly assembled name, the flame of mystery she spoked in the hippie van from which she hitched a ride and her trek towards the monumental dwelling of the Collins in her neat and quaint uniform rustling vaguely of the 70's. Her slightly airy, ethereal quality was rekindled and intensified at certain points of the film -where we witness her interactions with the ghost of Josette du Pres, for instance -the context of her very beginning was also reminiscent of another proclaimed novel of Henry James, The Turn of the Screw, which too speaks of a governess, except that Winters was better able to accommodate the vast, ornamented interior of the Gothic architectural fixture she was situated in, as compared to the governess in Henry James' tale who internalized her bewilderingly romantic situation and haunting beauty of her surroundings and companions to the point where her sanity was threatened. 

I think Carolyn is really a more intense version of anyone who is thick in the teenage girlhood experience, in the sense she is so brutally honest about it -and she is probably also an encapsulation of all the brooding and angst that bleeds out of our hearts during this phase. I mean, how many of us have not built a fortress out of our room in defense of everything else that lies outside, drenched it with references to popular culture, and danced to ourselves against a backdrop of strange, hypnotic music blaring out of a gramophone? But what gives her poignant Riot Girl character an individualized edge is the juxtaposition of her external landscape with her internal. The enemy she is pitted against is of a literally much more daunting scale than compared to ours -the four walls keeping her from eloping to New York and with Alice Cooper are those belonging to the Gothic tradition, her room is her defense mechanism against and escapade from a surrounding steeped in excessive aesthetics and tradition but one which is fertile ground for romantic adventures. Then again, this would all feel very familiar to a teenager trapped in suburbia -it shows that the rebellion unique to teenage girlhood can resist even Goth architecture, and that the werewolf Carolyn turns out to be lives within all of us.

3. Miranda St Clare (played by Anne Louise Lambert), Picnic at Hanging Rock by Peter Weir

Film still

"I know that Miranda is a Botticelli angel." 

How else can one respond to a film which revolves around a geographical presence symbolizing the epitome of Nature's mystery -its elixir of life, with a flock of girls in their budding teenage years donned in the delicate fabric and elaborate silhouettes of late Victorian-era dress under the guardianship of an isolated educational institution as its main players, and a yet stronger soundscape simmering with the excitement of a St. Valentine's celebration, sexual repression and flute-playing, other than to be shaken thoroughly to ones hearts core at the end of it, trembling with the terrifying beauty of it all? Relenting myself to the annoying tendency of a 21st century viewer to re-imagine the movie in the light of contemporary times, I would have liked the same Victorian dresses -corsets intact, but this time knee-length. But in the modern Digital and Information Age, I think it would be close to impossible to re-enact the effect which the girls' disappearance gripped the local neighborhood and their school -the effect which was like the permeation of slow poison and the viscosity of honey, the suspense accentuated by the sensual pace with which everything unraveled. 

4. Cecelia Lisbon (played by Hanna R. Hall), The Virgin Suicides by Sofia Coppola

Film Stills of Cecelia's room

Cecelia was the youngest of the Lisbon sisters -the sister who documented her life in a rainbow-emblazoned journal, the sister who an had exceptional Virgin Mary presence in her life, the sister who was the first to go.

We knew that the girls were our twins, that we all existed in space like animals with identical skins, and that they knew everything about us though we couldn't fathom them at all. We knew, finally, that the girls were really women in disguise, that they understood love and even death, and that our job was merely to create the noise that seemed to fascinate them.

Meditation

I don't have much to offer at the moment, so I figure I'd let you look at the clockworks of my brain, which means you would have to bear the self-centered and sentimental nature of the following. It still primarily deals with fashion. I hope it opens up an artery for an interesting conversation though; let me hear your thoughts. 


1. Phases I, II, III, IV and ongoing

I. I remember when I first started out I wanted all the visuals. I wanted fashion as architecture on a monumental scale. I had a very fierce and strict onus for the designers who rolled their collections out on style.com. They had to shock and please, thrill and delight and overstimulate my senses. I don't think I cared so much about structure in what inspired me as to momentum -I relished the heart-throbbing rhythm that is the core of fashion in its truest sense. This was probably something borne out of my entry into Tumblr, where stream of consciousness is key. The many things that appealed to my seven senses went straight from the point of excitement with my neurons to my online weblog. Amidst the color and lightning, it was the phase where I became sensitive to beauty. Sensitivity breeds adrenaline, dependency and tears -soon it was second nature for me to recognize beauty, to want to tear beauty out of all those editorials and faces and fabrics and preserve it in amber. It also awakened a need in me to have that beauty in my life, and it is here my first carefully-considered outfit makes its awkward debut (which I remember vividly and fondly): a pair of white shorts with a multicolored bohemia scarf used as a casual belt with a black long-sleeved DKNY top, a brown handbag borrowed from my mom and Converses which were 2 sizes too large for me, but I wore them anyway.

II. Some time around here, I became attuned to standards. The classical hierarchies and pecking orders of Tumblr blogs, editorials, brands, names. I unwittingly sifted out a number of inspirations which were my previous darlings from my Tumblr, my conversations with friends, and eventually my mind entirely -because they were "low" on the list. Suddenly that energy was channeled towards advancement -of what sort I have not figured out as of now. 

III. Henri Cartier Bresson: Your first 10,000 photographs are your worst. Do not look at them.

Ira Glass: All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, 

is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. 

Spurring the realization of an artistic potential within oneself is usually good taste, that sensitivity to beauty. That is why you end up despising your own creative handiwork, because it does not live up to your good taste. It is at that peak of displeasure that I find myself attempting to consolidate personal style and seek taste in my relationship with fashion. It is difficult, this period of absolute uncertainty and ginger treading. 

IV.  There is now an alarming need to streamline my choices pertaining to style. It has to be perfectly in tune, pitch and all, with my personal philosophies, my mood, myself as a character in its entirety. I need to identify with myself, to fully comprehend and take charge of my interaction with fashion. I want to exert absolute control over it, for it to dance to my own unique tune and no other. I want to be as powerful as the Pied Piper of Hamelin. I want to manipulate fashion, to extort everything I want from fashion in the way I want it.

For this to happen, I need to come to terms with myself